By: Jingle Bell
do you think everything would’ve been better
if you knew everything before they happened
if you planned everything before time moves on?”
A girl looking just like me
Her sable eyes stared into mine
the warm breath whispered.
In my hand suddenly appeared
an hourglass to turn back time
I played with “the time”
as time passed on
In an empty room full of regret
A screen playing the memories of the past
It was a story almost as perfect as a fairy tale
or some rip off from a movie
Then my worst nightmare was happening once again
I was forced to see you all over again
It felt like a heavy thunderstorm that suddenly came
even a second ago the sky was azure and fair
I could do nothing but run
yet I ran into more and more raindrops splashing onto my thin clothes
Everything just came rushing in my mind:
Only if I knew the answer to these questions
like I know them on these tests
I could’ve stopped all this
but I didn’t
I tried to grab something
yet I took hold of the fragile air as I fell deeper and deeper into the endless abyss
Chants of misery
and echoes of defeat
as if cursing me
for the wrongs that I have done
Let’s remain unaffected for another day
There is no point in going outside anymore
There is no reason for me to not rot in this somber room
So what if I can see the future no more?
Tomorrow without you is useless
Tears drowned my heart
Memories filled my sleep
Somewhere in these non-hectic days,
Something might have already gone wrong.
Yet here I stand in the summer light
with you still sitting in your empty seat
The pain from your heart froze with your smile
The tears from your soul melted with your shadow
Should I have chosen you? Or should I have met someone else?
Should I have waited for you? Or just give up instantly?
I don’t know, and no one ever will
But if it wasn’t you…
I can never go back now.
The sand stopped flowing.